God Made Me This Way

Why are they so skinny? While having my morning cup o’ Joe, I sat and watched an episode of Dr.Oz. The segment was about learning to love yourself the way that you are and being your best self.  God always knows what I need to hear and when I need to hear it. At over eight months pregnant now, it is easy to compare myself to other women.  Why are they so skinny? Why haven’t they gained as much weight during their pregnancy as I have during my own? What can I do to get in shape? All are serious […]

Addiction: It’s a Family Disease

Addiction, BRC Recovery I want you to know something. I hate you. You are among the cruelest of maladies. You twist love into unrecognizable tangles and place gulfs between loved ones that appear too wide to bridge. I want you to know that even though it often seems that you are winning, I will always love my son. I am the mother of an addict. My son has been in the clutches of this deadly disease for over eleven years. He fell off the edge of the earth at 16 years of age and began a dark, dark journey that took his soul and broke […]

Fear and Acceptance

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Fear of accepting Many fears kept me on the fence with sobriety for a long time. Fear of accepting I had a problem, fear of the label of alcoholic and the fear of a new way of life I heard about in recovery. When I drank, I felt free of my overwhelming emotions and problems. Drinking was my solution to dealing with fear and how could I handle life without it? What would life look like without alcohol? How would I manage to handle things? I was afraid. Today I know exactly what life looks like without alcohol. The fear […]

Bye Bye Comfort Zone

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2017 Opioid & Heroin Mississippi Drug Summit Last week I had the honor of attending the 2017 Opioid & Heroin Mississippi Drug Summit. What a groundbreaking time. From police officers to child protective service workers to church and treatment center counselors to narcotics bureau agents to professional baseball players in recovery to media reporters from Mississippi Today – the event was packed with people from all walks of life. The common denominator was their interest in addressing the addiction epidemic sweeping this country. I have never been a part of such a collaborative and impactful event. Some months ago my […]

Anything is Possible

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BRC Recovery I had a dream once of going to Penn State and getting a Ph.D. Instead, I ended up at the State Pen getting a GED. After dropping out of high school in the 12th grade, because I thought I knew it all, I started to follow my feet wherever my self-will led me. At this time in my life, drugs and alcohol played an important role, and it seemed the world was out to get me. My family was always there to offer support and advice, and I would nod my head in agreement but I never followed […]

Beautiful Bumpy Roads

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BRC Recovery Recently, my family and I went on vacation to Nosara, Costa Rica. What a glorious week of sun and fun mixed with the rains and mud of the “green season”. Swimming, surfing, ATV tour, horseback riding, and lots of good food and fellowship with our family and the local recovery community all made for a wondrously eventful and action packed week. On our last morning there, on the way to the airport, we decided to have a final breakfast at a beautiful, boutique hotel called La Garta Lodge. Outside the restaurant was a sign that read, “Bad roads […]

What Good Are Those Slogans, Anyway? (Part 4)

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If you’ve spent any time around Al-Anon, Alcoholics Anonymous, or other recovery-oriented groups, you’ve heard at least a few slogans and acronyms. Most of them seem to fall into one of three categories, and they include our relationship with: Our addicted loved one. Ourselves. Our Higher Power. This month, we’ll look at a few of my favorites that can help us stop living in fear and resentment and change our lives for the better.  FEAR: Forgetting Everything is All Right. The first time I heard this spoken was by Al-Anon speaker, Ellen Cassidy, she said she talked to her sponsor […]

Change

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one of the most inevitable aspects of life Change – one of the most inevitable aspects of life. We grow up, we make friends, we lose friends, we move, WE CHANGE. Despite the amount of “growing opportunities” that my Higher Power has presented in my path, it seems as though the process of walking through change remains just as uncomfortable! And as people say, we, as alcoholics and addicts, don’t accept change very well. The past few years of my life have been constant change. Surrendering to the fact that I would never be capable of “drinking like a lady” […]